I figured I would type a little something up since I finally got my computer to work. I spent five hours (and I'm copy and pasting from my facebook status) of uninstalling all of my apps, eating candy, turning my router and modem off and on 5 times, eating doughnuts, looking up help on the internet on my phone using 4g and not our wifi, throwing Charlie's slipper away from me 30+ times, telling my mom she's not tech savvy while she calls cox to see if my accusation of our internet being fucked up is true and her proving me wrong then coming to the point of saying my internal hard drive is broken to realize that I needed to update my flash player on my Mac.
That was my fail of the day. I should have started drinking hours ago. And surprisingly made it through the whole thing without smoking a bowl.
SO! Happy fucking New Years people!!! My 2013 passed with a bang! Of me vomiting in the bed I was staying in. I am able to pass on that I have smoked a Cuban cigar which are illegal in the U.S. and will never smoke another one. You see, I've never smoked a cigarette in my life much less a damned cigar. The nicotine went straight to my head. I stopped mid-sentence of telling my co-worker I liked the shoes he was wearing that I had picked out for him at the store before he cold shouldered me a week before... where was I going with that sentence? Sentence! Yea so I stopped mid-everything and bee-lined into the house with my head swimming the worst it EVER has. Then proceeded to... y'know. It wasn't even midnight yet. So everyone who's telling me they which they could've come and kissed me at midnight. LOL no ya don't!
So no I didn't get to toast to the New Year with clinging champagne glasses and fireworks and a kiss. But that's perfectly okay. This was the first New Year's Ever that I thoroughly enjoyed. In the two pictures I posted, I was nice a drunk and high and it was awesome. I ate and sang Celine Dion "My Heart Will Go On" since we were listening to a 90's music channel and had my ass slapped twice. Maybe midnight wasn't meant for me that night. Maybe my co-worker's brother was going to try and kiss me and I would've been too fucked up to say no. Because kissing with me leads to more and I DID NOT need that happening, let me tell you.
And also, the guy that I had actually invited to come to the party and pretty much offered myself to said he was going to stay home and watch The Walking Dead marathon... It was fate... Obviously.
Anyways.... I hope your night was safe and jolly and fun! And I hope you celebrated the next day with family and friends and more alcohol (which I did not) and cooked cabbage and beans! For wealth and good luck or prosperity and happiness or something. I hope you have all of those this year and the years to come.
I wanted to say how much I appreciate my watchers on here. They are mostly men. And you are all mostly perverts. But it's okay. Because I am also a man and a pervert....
Just kidding. But I am perverted. I have talked to quite a lot of you and you are all VERY EXTREMELY AND THOROUGHLY kind to me and generous in your compliments and critiques and offers. I don't know what I would do without talking to some of you when I did. I know I barely post photos anymore. I don't have an editing system on my Mac so it is a hassle to transport my photos back and forth. And my updated probably won't come any quicker or abundant because I officially start school again on the 15th
After leaving college a year and two months ago, I am finally ready to go back and do something with my education.
I'm going for psychology. I think I'll be able to find my way through that major.
Thank you for all of your support and uplifting words of wisdom and being your beautiful wonderful selves. I truly can not type the words thank you enough. I know it might not seem like it sometimes, but I care about every single comment and note that the lot of you send me. I don't need popularity on this website to feel like I'm contributing to it. I've made friends on here that I would've never met had I not decided that some of my photos are worth showing to the world whether I get support for them or not.
I know some of you are going trough hard times in your lives or have lost hope in certain areas and things like that, but I believe you are only happy if you decide to let life run it's crazy course and trail along with it with courage and confidence. I've experienced so many bad things that I know I've turned my back on life a few times too many before, but something is keeping me here for a reason and I'm willing to find out what that reason is. Whether it is to keep someone else on this Earth or give a little push to things that need to be, who knows? If I never find out, that's okay. But I'm going to keep this whole thing going because the longer I stick with it, the more my mind evolves and I grow into myself and enjoy things I never knew I'd enjoy.
So if I'm going to trust in life and myself, then you need to also trust in life and YOURSELF because YOU are SO worth the mass that you take up in this world. I don't care if you think so or not. You are here for something. So keep struggling and crying and laughing and giving and living. Because that's what imma do. If I'm able to do this with all of the bullshit that I have wrong with my brain and chemicals and everything else, then I know every one else can too.
Have a good 2014 and all the years after that.
And no, I'm not drunk or under the influence right now. So listen to what I'm sayin' you hear me?! Okay, good